Writing From My Younger Days

This was written on Friday July 11, 2008. I am posting it, because I feel it gives some insight into my life and thus, the adventurer's heart.

It seems that when I get away from the usual comforts of the home I find a better balance with myself. The daily comforts of a couch, a TV, or even something so simple as a house: that so many enjoy and depend on for personal pleasure. As I walk through nature I find myself questioning whether I truly want to live in this standard of life that I have been so well acquainted. It seems so apparent that those who seek a house and furnishings for that house often become very stressed. Once someone has a "possession" they often fall under the belief that it is actually theirs and they start to guard it. They want to keep it forever or find something better to keep forever. This does not seem healthy.

On the other hand, take a metaphysical look at a tree. A tree starts out as something simple such as an acorn or a pinecone. That simple beginning (not unlike the beginning of a human) leads to a series of events which over time ends with it becoming buried and beginning to grow. Like infant humans, it does not know where it is or how it got there, but it is purely content with simply living. After that initial stage of infancy is when the major difference become noticeable. The sapling is still happy with existing and growing, but a toddler wants more than that. A toddler seeks, not only sustenance, but also physical things. A toddler will see a toy and might not even know what it is, but the toddler does know that he wants it. Why can we not be like the tree or like many animals? Why is it so hard to live with the goal of sustenance and after that simply enjoy the experience of the reality around us? What will lead me to this ability?

While I was sitting by a stream in a natural setting I was very content. I was not seeking to gain property. I was enjoying the beauty of the reality all around me. Is there a reason that I must acquire a house or can I live in nature? There are many who would consider not owning a house a lack in personal quality. I do not believe that not owning a house is a bad thing. Right now, I am seeking two things. The first is a peaceful life and the second is a role in society that allows me to make a difference in the lives of others while allowing me to live the way I want to.